Well, actually it's not until tomorrow ya. But we threw her a surprise bithday party today.
Happy 19th Birthday in advance Wani! Nice to finally get to know you. ;)
29 April 2005
28 April 2005
Another poem...
This poem is dedicated to one of my dearest friend, Jasmine. Even though this poem is not about her, but since she likes it so much... Heh, so here you go, darling. And she was the one who persuade me to post this even though I was doubtful. It is so personal... I can't believe that I nearly cried when I read it out loud to Jasmine just now. But, here I go... I impart a little bit of me to you...
Pretty Petals
Pretty petals scattering
In a whirlwind round and round
Nothing describes this feeling
I think I have finally found
Somebody who loves me
Somebody who really cares
Someone who makes me free
Someone whose life I can share
But as always in this life
Nothing comes for free
Yes, even love, it’s true
There’s a price we have to pay
Even if he does love me
Even if he really cares
He guiltlessly lied to me
And wasn’t playing fair
All the hurt he put me through
And all the made-up stories
Did he think I was a fool?
‘Cause he made me weak at knees?
Nothing describes this feeling
When you think you’ve finally found
The man who you have feelings for
Not really the man you want
My feeling is just like
Pretty petals scattering
In a whirlwind round and round
Blown away and then… gone.
August 15, 2004
Pretty Petals
Pretty petals scattering
In a whirlwind round and round
Nothing describes this feeling
I think I have finally found
Somebody who loves me
Somebody who really cares
Someone who makes me free
Someone whose life I can share
But as always in this life
Nothing comes for free
Yes, even love, it’s true
There’s a price we have to pay
Even if he does love me
Even if he really cares
He guiltlessly lied to me
And wasn’t playing fair
All the hurt he put me through
And all the made-up stories
Did he think I was a fool?
‘Cause he made me weak at knees?
Nothing describes this feeling
When you think you’ve finally found
The man who you have feelings for
Not really the man you want
My feeling is just like
Pretty petals scattering
In a whirlwind round and round
Blown away and then… gone.
August 15, 2004
Him
I dunno if I should post my poems here. It's like so private. But, for you guys, haii... lantak la. This one is for fun so I thought of sharing it with you. =)
Him
Your smile is so sweet and so pretty
But oh how it can be so cheeky
It takes just one smile or just one glance
And it’ll make my day, it’ll make me dance
Your stare so intense, your eyes so bright
Makes me sleep peacefully through the night
You make my heart go all a flutter
When you’re around nothing else matter
How you made me crave for you
How I wish you are my boo
But how sad, how heartbreaking
You’re another girl’s darling…
10:25 A.M.
16 April 2005
There ya go. It’s been awhile since I made poems. I just felt like it. Ya know… just a little something for this blog. I finished this one in just half an hour. So it’s a bit crappy and mushy but who cares. Notice how all the lines have 9 syllables except for the last four which have 7 syllables each. (Feel free to count them). I even made them rhyme. *Blinks* Wow. *Amazed at self*
Of course, it’s nothing like Shakespeare. I mean, for one thing, you can totally understand them on your first read. Heh.
Him
Your smile is so sweet and so pretty
But oh how it can be so cheeky
It takes just one smile or just one glance
And it’ll make my day, it’ll make me dance
Your stare so intense, your eyes so bright
Makes me sleep peacefully through the night
You make my heart go all a flutter
When you’re around nothing else matter
How you made me crave for you
How I wish you are my boo
But how sad, how heartbreaking
You’re another girl’s darling…
10:25 A.M.
16 April 2005
There ya go. It’s been awhile since I made poems. I just felt like it. Ya know… just a little something for this blog. I finished this one in just half an hour. So it’s a bit crappy and mushy but who cares. Notice how all the lines have 9 syllables except for the last four which have 7 syllables each. (Feel free to count them). I even made them rhyme. *Blinks* Wow. *Amazed at self*
Of course, it’s nothing like Shakespeare. I mean, for one thing, you can totally understand them on your first read. Heh.
Home... Love... Family... (Anastasia, 1997)
I miss my family. Living away from home is hell. Especially when you have no money. Ha-ha.
You always tend to take things for granted in life. The things that you have; your family, your friends and even your own sweet home. When they’re gone from you or you are away from them, then you’ll start to miss it and realise how you take things for granted.
I used to naïvely think that I could seriously not live without Astro or MTV. Even the Internet. How dependent I was on the idiot box. I found out how wrong I was when I moved to Miri. I miss it, yes. But I still live. I found out that there are other things I can do to fill my time. Like… studying and finishing your assignments before it’s too late… *cough cough*
Living away from home, you start to realise how comfortable your home is. How you live in luxury (when compared to living in Senadin or CV). At home, you have Astro, VCD/DVD players, Internet with a broadband connection, PS and PS2, big kitchen with two fridges full of food, pots and pans all ready to be use, hot water anytime any day, no shortage of water, clean water, keyboard and guitar, cars (I miss driving… Sigh) my bed!!, my mirror (I don’t have mirror in my room in CV. How sad is that?) Waaa… talking about home is so depressing. Why am I doing this to myself? *sob*
And best of all, I don’t have to pay for any of that! Living in Miri made me learn how to be dependent, how precious money really is and how my dad works hard to earn all the luxury to make his family’s life comfortable. You will never appreciate and be thankful to your dad unless you start paying your own bills and whatnot.
I used to live with Sarah and Maya. Living with them can be quite lonely as usually there’s only the both of us in the house. I grew up living with my 5 siblings. My home is always noisy, full of people. There’s ALWAYS somebody home. I can always count on my maid to be around. (I use to yearn for the house to be empty but when it did, I’ll start asking my maid where everyone is…). So it was no surprise when I broke down and cry a few times, missing the company, the yelling and laughter.
You always tend to take things for granted in life. The things that you have; your family, your friends and even your own sweet home. When they’re gone from you or you are away from them, then you’ll start to miss it and realise how you take things for granted.
I used to naïvely think that I could seriously not live without Astro or MTV. Even the Internet. How dependent I was on the idiot box. I found out how wrong I was when I moved to Miri. I miss it, yes. But I still live. I found out that there are other things I can do to fill my time. Like… studying and finishing your assignments before it’s too late… *cough cough*
Living away from home, you start to realise how comfortable your home is. How you live in luxury (when compared to living in Senadin or CV). At home, you have Astro, VCD/DVD players, Internet with a broadband connection, PS and PS2, big kitchen with two fridges full of food, pots and pans all ready to be use, hot water anytime any day, no shortage of water, clean water, keyboard and guitar, cars (I miss driving… Sigh) my bed!!, my mirror (I don’t have mirror in my room in CV. How sad is that?) Waaa… talking about home is so depressing. Why am I doing this to myself? *sob*
And best of all, I don’t have to pay for any of that! Living in Miri made me learn how to be dependent, how precious money really is and how my dad works hard to earn all the luxury to make his family’s life comfortable. You will never appreciate and be thankful to your dad unless you start paying your own bills and whatnot.
I used to live with Sarah and Maya. Living with them can be quite lonely as usually there’s only the both of us in the house. I grew up living with my 5 siblings. My home is always noisy, full of people. There’s ALWAYS somebody home. I can always count on my maid to be around. (I use to yearn for the house to be empty but when it did, I’ll start asking my maid where everyone is…). So it was no surprise when I broke down and cry a few times, missing the company, the yelling and laughter.
18 April 2005
Curtin Village
I am living in Curtin Village now. Not with Maya or Sarah anymore. I live with 4 other girls in my house. At least here they’ve provide a TV set (even though the remote is retarded), hot water and air-conditioned bedrooms.
But haa… that’s the good part. Let me bitch about my new dwelling.
Just a few days ago, we have no lights in the living room slash kitchen. The light bulbs were all not working. So we ate in darkness. Well… semi-darkness. We opened the bathroom doors so that we can at least see what we were doing. Now, only 2 out of 10 are working.
We don’t have dining chairs! We’re the only house in the entire CV that lacks this. And my bathroom doesn’t have a mirror. So I have to use my compact powder mirrors. How pathetic is that? We don’t have washing machines. There are only two washing machines in CV and it’s located at two empty houses across my house. Yes, that means we all have to go there by crossing the road, carrying our laundry baskets, pass the security guards. For all the entire CV residents to see.
One of the sad things is that, they only gave us a small fridge. There are 5 of us in the house. 5 girls. Unlike men, we tend to buy lots of food and not wait till we have a mouldy cheese and a sour cartoon of milk left in the fridge to buy groceries.
But okay, enough complaining and whining. One great thing about living in CV? Farhan lives here too. *grin* And also I live among friends. I haven’t taken the Curtin shuttle buss thingy cause I always tumpang other people’s cars. Living near to Curtin does have advantages. Plus, there’s no curfew! Woot! Heh. On my very first night sleeping there, I returned at 1.30 a.m. Pak Guard slumber jer tengok kite org pass by the gates.
But haa… that’s the good part. Let me bitch about my new dwelling.
Just a few days ago, we have no lights in the living room slash kitchen. The light bulbs were all not working. So we ate in darkness. Well… semi-darkness. We opened the bathroom doors so that we can at least see what we were doing. Now, only 2 out of 10 are working.
We don’t have dining chairs! We’re the only house in the entire CV that lacks this. And my bathroom doesn’t have a mirror. So I have to use my compact powder mirrors. How pathetic is that? We don’t have washing machines. There are only two washing machines in CV and it’s located at two empty houses across my house. Yes, that means we all have to go there by crossing the road, carrying our laundry baskets, pass the security guards. For all the entire CV residents to see.
One of the sad things is that, they only gave us a small fridge. There are 5 of us in the house. 5 girls. Unlike men, we tend to buy lots of food and not wait till we have a mouldy cheese and a sour cartoon of milk left in the fridge to buy groceries.
But okay, enough complaining and whining. One great thing about living in CV? Farhan lives here too. *grin* And also I live among friends. I haven’t taken the Curtin shuttle buss thingy cause I always tumpang other people’s cars. Living near to Curtin does have advantages. Plus, there’s no curfew! Woot! Heh. On my very first night sleeping there, I returned at 1.30 a.m. Pak Guard slumber jer tengok kite org pass by the gates.
Lord Of The Bands
For those of you who do not know what Lord of the Bands is, it’s a competition among bands where each band will sing any number of songs in at least two different languages (English, Malay, Mandarin and Iban) in the course of 6 minutes only. The songs can be an original composition or cover versions. There cannot be vulgar/obscene language/behaviour allowed. God, I sound like the frigging Rules and Regulations crap thingy, don’t I? Well, that’s because I’m copying these information from my LOTB Special Edition Calendar-Magazine.
Well anyhoo, a competition was held in Miri last Saturday on 16th April 2005 at Civic Centre. And I was SO there!
I have bought the calendar-magazine worth RM15 from Jun Bing three days before the event. Inside contained a free entry pass to the LOTB. Cbell is going to pick me up, along with Rueben, Dian and Ichuy. So I am all set and raring to go.
On the day of the event, Cbell picked me up at 12.40 p.m after picking up Rueben. Then, we went to pick Dian and Ichuy. Bla bla bla, we arrived there at 1 p.m. We were the first to arrive. (Cbell drive faaassstt…) We meet up with the others (Ernest, Felix, Don, Muhaimin, JB, Stephanie, Sarah) at the parking lot.
Saiful came near to 2 p.m. to give me back my Canon PowerShot A80 with 4.0 mega pixels digital camera. (Ahem, promotion sikit.) After much persuasion from Sarah, Steph, Dian and I, he agreed to go! Yay! Heh.
At first, they said it was at noon. Then they changed it and said it was at 1 p.m. The banners and magazines said it was at 1 p.m. Then they changed it yet again and said it started at 2 p.m. But after much waiting, whining and complaining (while eating, drinking and taking pictures of ourselves and spyshots of other unknown people) we were finally let in at 3.30 p.m. *relieved sigh* It was getting really hot outside…
Bla bla bla bla…
More bla bla bla…
Then we all went home at night.
Frustrating? Well, I ain't got time to type all that's happened ya know. Assignments and stuff. Well, keep visiting this blog. I'll update soon enough. ;)
15 April 2005
Farhan
Saw Farhan at the library’s locker the other day. Somehow, I just got the feeling that he’s there. And there he was with all his glory. Bending down sorting out his things. Sigh. He looked up when I opened the door. Thank god, I was leading Jasmine and Steffie so I get to see him first! Whahaha. Yes, I am possessive. Yes, I am obsessed. And the problem is…?
Anyways, there he was and I spotted him at once. (Like no duh?). There was nobody else in the room and I went “Hey 'Farhan'…!” very casually and friendly (well what I hope is casual and friendly anyway) while walking and searching for our locker. He said “Hey…” and smiled. I shrieked and fainted mentally. Too bad our locker wasn’t nearer or I could have chat with him or something. He looked up a couple of times at me and every time he does that I made sure I caught his eyes and smiled at him. And he smiled back. Gosh… Melt, melt. Waduh… bisa cair, dong…
But then my mum called me up. But I was too distracted see. While I was talking to my mum, Farhan looked at me a couple of times. I had to wonder what she was talking about till Farhan went away then I can finally make out what she was trying to say. When he finally got up and leave, he passed by and smiled at me! Waaa… I am melting. My heart’s melting… Sigh. Having a crush on him feels so good. Seeing him feels so good. When he smiles at me feels so marvellous. When he talks to me, it’s simple divine. I love his voice. His accent. His smile. His eyes.
But of course Christina’s mere existence ruin it all. I saw her at the cafeteria the other day. With all her guy friends. She had to sit next to our table. Min went away talking to her phone. I so wanted to get out of there. Nyampah nangga ompuan ngegeh ya. Cause I was so afraid to see Farhan walking towards her any minute. And my instinct was proven true. In 15 minutes, Farhan walked up and made his way straight to her. I didn’t want to look at them. I hate her! Why the heck does she have to be so pretty and ladylike. I loath her. I despise her. And I don’t even know her yet. Wait till I get to know her. I just might get murderous.
Anyways, there he was and I spotted him at once. (Like no duh?). There was nobody else in the room and I went “Hey 'Farhan'…!” very casually and friendly (well what I hope is casual and friendly anyway) while walking and searching for our locker. He said “Hey…” and smiled. I shrieked and fainted mentally. Too bad our locker wasn’t nearer or I could have chat with him or something. He looked up a couple of times at me and every time he does that I made sure I caught his eyes and smiled at him. And he smiled back. Gosh… Melt, melt. Waduh… bisa cair, dong…
But then my mum called me up. But I was too distracted see. While I was talking to my mum, Farhan looked at me a couple of times. I had to wonder what she was talking about till Farhan went away then I can finally make out what she was trying to say. When he finally got up and leave, he passed by and smiled at me! Waaa… I am melting. My heart’s melting… Sigh. Having a crush on him feels so good. Seeing him feels so good. When he smiles at me feels so marvellous. When he talks to me, it’s simple divine. I love his voice. His accent. His smile. His eyes.
But of course Christina’s mere existence ruin it all. I saw her at the cafeteria the other day. With all her guy friends. She had to sit next to our table. Min went away talking to her phone. I so wanted to get out of there. Nyampah nangga ompuan ngegeh ya. Cause I was so afraid to see Farhan walking towards her any minute. And my instinct was proven true. In 15 minutes, Farhan walked up and made his way straight to her. I didn’t want to look at them. I hate her! Why the heck does she have to be so pretty and ladylike. I loath her. I despise her. And I don’t even know her yet. Wait till I get to know her. I just might get murderous.
04 April 2005
Wee...
My crush talked to me today! Woot! Ahaha. I flirted. Damn the fact that he has a girlfriend. I love making him laugh. I cheekily asked him about something and managed to make him smile a guilty smile. Wee... My heart's a flutter. *fans self*
Called my best friend just now. She's in Perth. Gosh, how I miss her. It was so good to hear her voice. We are so different but we go along so well. We are at that phase where no matter how far we are from each other, it doesn't matter because we would always be with each other, some way some how. It's incredible how we don't need to talk, just sitting on the bed listening to the music together not doing anything else but still having fun. Just being with her is fun, no matter what we're doing. I'm so fortunate to have found a person like that. I'm so fortunate to have met many good friends. My life is blessed with their pressence.
Called my best friend just now. She's in Perth. Gosh, how I miss her. It was so good to hear her voice. We are so different but we go along so well. We are at that phase where no matter how far we are from each other, it doesn't matter because we would always be with each other, some way some how. It's incredible how we don't need to talk, just sitting on the bed listening to the music together not doing anything else but still having fun. Just being with her is fun, no matter what we're doing. I'm so fortunate to have found a person like that. I'm so fortunate to have met many good friends. My life is blessed with their pressence.
02 April 2005
The Beach
Went to Esplanade today with Syafiq, Saiful, Sarah and Jasmine. The sky was so beautiful. At sunset, the sky was as if drawn with crayons by God's hands. It was a gamut of blues, oranges, yellows and with a tinge of greens here and there.
With the wind caressing my face and gently sweeping my hair, I stared at the sky and sea in awe. Sceneries like these made life so worthwhile. And watching them together with people who love and care about you makes it even more meaningful.
At times like these made me think how precious life is and how we should treasure it. At bad times, these memories would help me get through them and give me hope, telling me that life is not that bad. Life is not a bitch. Instead life is beautiful.
On another event, as we all know, it was April Fool's day yesterday. I went to MuggleNet.com for my nearly daily visits. And what do I found? A message saying that MuggleNet has shut down by Warner Bros and J.K. Rowling because of copyright breach. Or something like that. All I did was stare and stare at screen, not believing it. I remember thinking "WTF... WTF... This is not happening. You got to be kidding me..." until it downloaded to the real MuggleNet.com.
April Fooled!
Grrr... I nearly had a heart attack. I actually hyperventilated. Thank god I didn't go crazy, right Green Fairy, Blue Fairy?
With the wind caressing my face and gently sweeping my hair, I stared at the sky and sea in awe. Sceneries like these made life so worthwhile. And watching them together with people who love and care about you makes it even more meaningful.
At times like these made me think how precious life is and how we should treasure it. At bad times, these memories would help me get through them and give me hope, telling me that life is not that bad. Life is not a bitch. Instead life is beautiful.
On another event, as we all know, it was April Fool's day yesterday. I went to MuggleNet.com for my nearly daily visits. And what do I found? A message saying that MuggleNet has shut down by Warner Bros and J.K. Rowling because of copyright breach. Or something like that. All I did was stare and stare at screen, not believing it. I remember thinking "WTF... WTF... This is not happening. You got to be kidding me..." until it downloaded to the real MuggleNet.com.
April Fooled!
Grrr... I nearly had a heart attack. I actually hyperventilated. Thank god I didn't go crazy, right Green Fairy, Blue Fairy?
01 April 2005
Baju kurung
I wore my baju kurung today. No weird questions from people since it is Friday. The last time I wore a baju kurung on a non-Friday day, people were asking me “Do you know what day it is?” As if you can only wear baju kurung on Fridays. What utter crap.
I met my crush today. =) We didn’t talk or anything. But it was enough just to see him. =) The thing is, he said hello to me first! Well, he didn’t exactly say anything, just put up his hand and waved hello. I smiled and waved back. I wish I said something like “Helluu Mister Farhan” with a cheeky smile. Sigh. Some other time. Yes, I’m optimistic. Of course, there’ll be another time. Heh.
The thing is he’s bloody taken by this bloody bitch who nobody really knows of. Not exactly Miss Popular. Oh well. Can’t have everything you want. Heh. I’m so bitter when I’m jealous.
I was interested in him the first time I laid my eyes on him. I don’t think it was love at first sight exactly because I don’t know him enough to love him. But I guess you can say I’m in love with him. Or obsessed. Whichever you like, I don’t really mind.
I met my crush today. =) We didn’t talk or anything. But it was enough just to see him. =) The thing is, he said hello to me first! Well, he didn’t exactly say anything, just put up his hand and waved hello. I smiled and waved back. I wish I said something like “Helluu Mister Farhan” with a cheeky smile. Sigh. Some other time. Yes, I’m optimistic. Of course, there’ll be another time. Heh.
The thing is he’s bloody taken by this bloody bitch who nobody really knows of. Not exactly Miss Popular. Oh well. Can’t have everything you want. Heh. I’m so bitter when I’m jealous.
I was interested in him the first time I laid my eyes on him. I don’t think it was love at first sight exactly because I don’t know him enough to love him. But I guess you can say I’m in love with him. Or obsessed. Whichever you like, I don’t really mind.
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