My Hair

Azee managed to persuade me to cut my hair yesterday. She insisted that I have fringe. Because I look boring, she reasoned. Why thank you, dear sister. I finally relented. She was so persistent. How can I refuse.

Damn my weakness.

Nevertheless, I was still doubtful and reluctant. I was actually horrified the whole time the hairdresser cut Azee's hair. Her long locks... I kept moaning while Azee has this "Who gives a fuck? Really?" look.

When it was my turn, I occasionally winced. I TRIED to keep a straight face. Like I'm hell cool with it. Seeing this, the hairdresser kept reassuring me and showed me how little she is cutting off. Haha. She was so understanding.

BEFORE

AFTER

No difference, I hear you say. That's the whole point! I was so relieved that the hairdresser recommended that I shouldn't have fringe. So I asked her to just trim my hair. Have to be wary of stupid split ends, you know!

Actually, sengaja want to put my picture here. I feel that my blog lacks it. Previous entry full of beautiful Asians. I also want. It IS my blog, after all...

One Month

But
I have been
loving you
longer than that

Memoirs of a Geisha

I thought the movie was beautiful. It was so similar to the book. I actually didn't expect much. I thought it will be the same, like any other book-to-movie films. I have lost faith since they butchered all the Harry Potter movies. Especially the third and the fourth. So I was surprised how very little changes they made.

One of the things I love about the book is how it carefuly describes about everything. How the kimonos are worn, how beautiful the fabric and designs were etc. And everything that I've imagined while reading the book comes to life when watching the movie. The tipsy house, the Japanese gardens, Pumpkin (the actress is Japanese) and the many little, little things.

What I don't get is, why in the world did they choose Chinese actresses to play Japanese roles??

Chiyo. Or the young Nitta Sayuri. Played by a Japanese.

Nitta Sayuri. Played by a Chinese. I wonder when she was her small Japanese self, did she say to herself "When I grow up, I want to be a Chinese."?


Young Pumpkin. An American.


Grown up Pumpkin. Now a Japanese.

A few of you might say, Who the hell cares? Well, I do! All this stereotypes that all Asian looks the same.. Sigh.

They might as well get Aishwarya Rai (India)


to play Nitta Sayuri.

See? Just imagine. Her dress almost same like kimono. Can pass as Japanese, I'm sure.

Jackie Chan (China) as the Chairman. Why?

Both look good in suits.

Both look good in err... armour they wore. Both old already. What's the difference? So you see, Jackie can surely play as the Chairman.

and Kristine Hermosa (Philippines)


as Hatsumomo. Because I can't think of anybody else. But see, she is wearing something Asian like. Who cares that it's actually of Chinese design.


Oh, also she has or had long hair. Also a bit brownish. (Coloured. Like Gong Li lah) She has really beautiful hair, I tell you! Gong Li also has nice hair. (grumbles to self)

I didn't want to change Michelle Yeoh as Mameha because she is a Malaysian (and I am biased).

I stumbled upon this joke on the Net today.

A Chinese man walked into a pub in New York with his pal. He says to his pal: "Hey! That's "Jurassic Park's director Steven Spielberg over there! God, I wish he'll come over to say hi."

Spielberg suddenly walked over and gave the man a heavy punch on the nose. "Hey! What's that for?"

"You bloody Japanese killed my granddad when you bombed Pearl Harbor!" he said.

"I'm not Japanese! I'm Chinese!"

"Chinese, Vietnamese, Japanese, you're all the same! "Spielberg walks back.

The Chinese man calmly walks over and gives Spielberg a really heavy punch in the face. "What the... !?"

"YOU BLOODY AMERICAN! YOU SANK THE TITANIC!"

"No, no, an iceberg sank the Titanic!"

"Iceberg, Carlsberg, Spielberg, you're all the same!"

Oh, and I thought Sayuri's dance was a bit freaky.


Here, very nice right? And then, she started dancing crazily.


Throughout the entire scene, all I thought was "Wow. That reminds me of Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam..."

Long hair... White robes... Pretty... Very white powder on face...




Maybe I should consider casting Maya Karin as Nitta Sayuri instead of Aishwarya Rai..

I've been tagged...

I haven't had the time to read other people's blog because my Internet fcuked up after I went online for an hour or so. Haih.

I just got why our dear Emily had been prancing about yelling "You're It~ You're It~" in my chatterbox.

I've been tagged. Twice! Darn. And the latest one is hard... But that's for the next entry..

First of all, remove the blog in the no.1 spot from the following list and push everyone up one place. Then add your own blog to the bottom spot.

1. Alex Allied
2. Cluelee Dream
3. Planet SubKi||er
4. Guilty Secrets
5. Where I Spread My Wings and Fly...


Then, answer the following questions :


What was I doing 10 years back:
I was being a normal silly kid back then. I don't really remember anything specific. I was so innocent and naive. Sigh.

What was I doing 1 year back:
Started smoking. Bad Nisa! Bad girl! Sit! Stay! Stay smoking...

5 snacks I enjoy:
- CHOCOLATE!
- McD french fries
- Ice cream
- Cakes from 'pretentious' places (Haha)
- Pringles

5 song I know all the lyrics off my head right now:
- My All - Mariah Carey
- We Belong Together - Mariah Carey
- Hero - Mariah Carey (Ok, I guess from this point you guys can tell I know most of her songs. I should shut up about her already)
- The Water Is Wide - Charlotte Church
- Brightly Wound - Eisley

5 things I would do if I'm a millionaire:
- Shopping shopping shopping!
- Travel
- That's about it.
- What about other people? What other people? No, I'm not buying you McD.
- I'll keep the money all to myself. No, I don't share.

5 bad habits:
- Smoking
- Procrastinate about nearly everything
- Being so sarcastic and bitchy
- Drinking
- I refuse to list down my bad sides. Have to keep up my good image, ya know? Oh shut up. I do have one.

5 things I love to do:
- Reading
- Singing
- Hanging out with friends
- Watching sunsets at the beach
- Going out at night

5 things you would never wear, buy or get new again:
- That bleh skirt my mum bought me
- That baju kurung that dotty tailor ruined. Grrr...
- Erm, I can't really think of anything right now.
- I mean, who cares right?
- Actually, I'm running out of time. I have to go pick Azee and Udin up right now. I'm lateeee!

5 favourite "toys":
- My mobile
- My laptop. I wish I have a better one though.. Like that Vaio..
- MP3 player. Not mine but who cares
- PS2
- Uhh... (can't think of anything anymore) the... television?

Then you select 5 people to pass it on to:
- Ing Hui (You tagged me once.)
- Dian (Do you still blog??) [ I can't link her cuz she doesn't want to be link here]
- Saiful (Just because. I miss you lah.)
- Rasyiq (Cuz I like you. Haha.)
- I can't think of other people...

Whoops...

So the previous entry... You guys must be wondering what in the world am I talking about and especially who was it.

I thought that Rasyiq lied about some stuff.

Turns out that it was all a misunderstanding. There never was a lie. My source was somebody I trusted. Someone I've known for a long time. One of my best friends. So, naturally I trusted her words. And yes, I would believe her over anyone else. But urm, maybe not 100% since this incident happened. Haih. Apa la that girl.

If only I knew where she got that information from. I wouldn't have really believed it. Turns out, Rafie talked to Amalina. No surprise that he would call Syiq an ass.

One thing that freaked me out was that yesterday, Syiq called me to tell me that Amalina got it all wrong. I was so, so relieved. I was reading the comic strips in the newspaper. And since the horoscope was just next to it, I read it. I think horoscopes are a bunch of funny craps. I don't believe them. But what I read was a surprise. It said:

"... You are likely to react in a totally different way than you would expect to news that comes your way about your partner. Remember to ensure that what you hear is true before acting on it..."

Opps. Heh heh.

Sayang, I'm so sorry. I love you. I won't throw knives anymore. I'll do my research next time.

What would you do...

If you caught someone in a lie?

That person didn't really exactly lie to you but that person lied to everybody else telling them things involving you that did not exactly happen.

If you guys know me well, you'll know how much I detest, how I hate liars.

I woke up today and I had trouble breathing. Like my chest was crushed. I thought maybe because I smoke. But hell, I can smoke one whole pack in one night of clubbing and I'll be alright the next day. Hangovers do not count.

I realise that it was because I learned something last night. And it wasn't pleasant. It upsets me. It hurts so bad.

How could you do this to others and to me? How could you even think that people, especially me, would not find out? We've been through this! HOW COULD YOU?! How can you still lie...? Why? Why...?!

Damn it!

I'm going to have to confront you. Face to face.

Selamat Hari Raya Korban/Haji

Get to eat meat! Yay! I feel sorry for you vegetarians right now.

It's suppose to be family time, right? But my dad and I are not speaking to each other. Again. I felt sad at first, but then I just couldn't get myself to really care anymore.

He found my empty pack of cigarettes and a few cigarette butts in my ashtray.

He never said he was proud of me. He never acknowledged my achievements. Most of the time, he's all angry and sarcastic. I'm not missing that at all.

He used to assumed the worst in me. Still does. I have no idea why. Maybe it's because he doesn't know me. I don't know.

He once accused me I'm into Black Metal. It seems funny to others but not to me at that time. He really thought I was off killing innocent animals for satanic rituals or something. I was only 15. My best friend just laughed her ass off. Me? A Black Metal? Seriously. I soon thought the whole thing was ridiculous too.

And then, I got this disease of some kind. And he was quick to deduce that it was STD. It was an awful accusation. I was barely 17. Turns out it was this thingy from my chicken pox that resurfaced because my immune system was weak.

I saw this in PostSecret and it made me think.




Why did I smoke? I told my mum it was stress. Was I lying to my mum and myself? Was it really stress?

Maybe when I started smoking, it really was stress.

The question is, why did I continue? I'm not stressed every friggin' time.

I know I wasn't and am not addicted. In fact, I can last for weeks without smoking.

I know my dad won't like it if I smoke. So I continued to.

I never realise that until now.

Now I still smoke, just to spite him.




P.S: I feel guilty of course. My mum was upset when she found out. But maybe I am addicted. Just a little. A tiny bit. I mean, I haven't smoked for more than 24 hours already. Even though I have a few sticks left. Not really that addicted.

All this talk about cigarettes... I'm going for a smoke after I finish this.

P.P.S: I am aware of all the risks and consequences of smoking. Don't preach.